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| Well well......I am actually coming back home....I swear somebody should make a story out of my life....it would be fun!! JK well papa had a heartattack on Saturday and was in ICU all week, he got home yesterday. I am going to come home for good though cause grandma needs help with everything and I feel bad leaving it all up to her. They did alot for me so they deserve it!!! It really scares me though, if I wasnt here and something happened to papa I would never forgive myself. I went yesterday to get out of my lease at the apartment which is going to be a ton of money, but oh well. you live you learn....what do you do. I hope everyone else is doing good!! Singing is going good, I sang at the Shallow water Harvest festival last weekend, it was alot of fun. We have a band in lubbock, well im not apart of it anymore, but its really fun to have everyone practicing and then actually going out and performing. I don't know how to explain it its just a cool feeling. I plan on continuing singing here, I want to start a band here, so if anyone is interested just let me know. Me and little T man are back together......you know I always said I would never be one of those girls that go back and forth......well i guess you never know till your in the position. But we have alot to work out.....but I think it will!!! | | |
| I actually love it here in lubbock....its alot of fun!! The funny thing is Hooters in pretty fun too. Kinda uncomfortable but I make alot of money and I will definitely make rent this month so im good. I like the atmosphere alot, there are the occasional asshole guys that come in but we just tell the manager and they kick them out and if they dont leave they get the cops called....(It happened the other night). Not to me but another girl that was working. They told her she was ugly and sucked and they wanted another waitress. It was horrible. School is awesome!! I love it!! Our first live performance with our band is October 22 at the Shallow water Harvest Festival. I am so excited!!! Yesterday was probably the worst day of my life. Its just a bad day anyway cause its September 21 and that was the day my mom died. So I try every year to go and make the day normal, but no i am telling you...everything that can go wrong on this day will!!!!!! So next year I am going to just lock myself in my room and watch TV all day. I found out I have a warrant out for my arrest because I forgot all about a speeding ticket I got a while ago. I woke up at 5 in the morning so I could go to see you at the pole. ( I had went to bed at 2 the night before cause I had to work). I was 15min late to see you at the pole and it was over, which really sucked cause I had woken up so early. School was decent yesterday could have been better. Then I went to work. I had the rudest customers all night and only made 60 dollars which is the least I made so far. I kept forgetting everything. It was just bad. I wanted to just leave. So from now on I am going to find a hole on that day and stay there!! Ok I'm done griping..... | | |
| Well lets see last week i decided to pack up and move......I had a
party the other night and everyone was having fun you know how that
goes little bit of drinking and all that. As I sat there watching
everybody I realized that that isn't where I wanted to be in life.
Everyone knows that I want to be a country singer. So I woke up the
next morning and drove to lubbock. A while ago a customer came
into Texas Roadhouse and was talking to me about what I wanted to do in
life and I told her. She told me about a School in Levelland Texas 30
min west of Lubbock, that specialized in the country music industry.
Its one of the best in the world. It teaches you everything from the
engineering part of it to vocals to songwriting, performance
EVERYTHING!!! So I woke up the morning after my party and me and my
friend Samantha drove to Levelland. I applied for school and got an
apartment and moved in not even a week later. Thats where I am now. I
love it here. I live by myself but there is a few people here to hang
out with. I took out a loan to help me pay for my school and everything
else that goes along with it. I am really excited!!! I am working at
Texas Roadhouse, and Hooters. I really didnt exactly want to work at
Hooters but I really needed the money. If I really want to make it as a
country singer I gotta do what I gotta do so I am. Tanner won't talk to
me and pretty much called me trash because I work at Hooters now. But
whatever. I thought he would be the one that totally supported me in
this but he's not. Shows who I dont need in my life. Most people know
who I am and whats inside, Hooters doesnt change who I am , its
just something I have to do so I can get on my feet. Well thats enough
for now.
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| I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I live.
Love is as much of an object as an obsession, everybody wants it, everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it, those who do will cherish it, be lost in it, and among all, never... never forget it.
Nothing hurts more than realising he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him.
I dont miss him, I miss who I thought he was | | |
| Wow....so I haven't been on here in a while.....Well first of all, I am single......3 yrs and I am single. It's kinda weird because I don't think I have been single for longer than a month since my freshman year. I was with Tanner freshman year, then with Brandon for a year and a half then back with Tanner for the last 3 years. HmMmMm........I am going to be single for a while!! I like it, its pretty fun....but then you have those times where you start thinking about everything and you miss them, but what do ya do......Rumor has it he cheated on me within the first year, the girl actually didnt know who I was and I was talking about Tanner. Make a long story short she was like I am so sorry Brittany, but Tanner cheated on you with me!!! Then Tanner said she is just mad cause he didn't want to date her......drama drama drama.....but its over so I guess either way it doesn't matter. I don't exactly know what to believe. I am staying home again this semester and going to TCC......so if anyone else is gonna be around here call me so we can hang out because everyone is leaving me!  Well thats pretty much it......bye bye!!! I love all of you!!!!
I so stole this quote from Tiffany: Thanks T!! But it fits perfectly!!
One day you're going to wake up and realize how much you truly love her and when that day comes, she'll be waking up next to the guy who already knows.
Dont make someone a priority if they only make you an option. | | |
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